More and more these days I seem to be using this blog as a form of venting my rage,anger,frustration...URGH...all those "time wasting" sorts of emotions that I really could do with out.
Initially I was hoping to post my creations. This blog was started as a showcase or a diary of sorts where I could post my ever expanding body of work and projects. My mind constantly swirls with ideas and projects some fulfilled some to be forever a mere cartoon light bulb that just briefly shines above my cartoon head. I have been told that I have my fingers in too many pies...some say that I've en started to use my toes! So maybe that's the problem. Stretching myself too far and not concentrating on just one thing.
People do start things and actually half way through desist so no shame in letting go. But there's that flaw again. I am unable to leave something alone until it's reached it's potential or its goal. By far not the worst character trait but possibly a self damaging,self deprecating one. So people and things move on...
they grow,evolve,lose interest,give up, or however you look at it... but I still find myself stuck in a position of "head donkey". The load barer. I might need to explain that one. "Donkey" as in the animal that gets on with it,takes the heavy load and hobbles on unthanked,unaided and most definitely struggling in a state of extreme tiredness until what is asked of him/her is done. Not a great analogy though it works for me ,explains how I feel and I definitely feel like one.
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